Whatchoo need?

Sometimes I think my doctor is a drug dealer.

Nah, I'm kidding. But, seriously, I ask him for certain drugs that I have researched that might help with my aggression and bipolar issues and he gives them to me. Usually for 30 days, then I go back, he asks if they helped and if they did he gives me 6 months worth of them.

The latest is Abilify which, so far, is helping me a lot. I am sleeping better, controlling my buildups and outbursts better, and making me more level all around. The bad part is that one of the side effects is weight gain. I guess that means I need to try harder on the diet/exercise front to keep losing and reach my goals.

Less of me

I haven't posted on the results of the eating habits in a bit, but I am still seeing success and am now down 20 pounds from when I started. I am now tipping the scales at 257, only 7 more to go to meet my goal weight.

Once I get there, I will be evaluating how I feel and whether I should attempt to drop even more. The ongoing goals will be to tone and firm what is left of me. The weight loss is great, but I'm not totally hung up on the number and am ultimately more concerned with how I feel and look. I have a fairly large frame so I can carry the weight, but I don't want to end up looking like the saggy baggy elephant.

I have been going through a daily regimen of situps, treadmill and universal weight machine to attempt to get myself in better shape, firm and tone and increase endurance.

I'll post agin when I hit 250.

I must be cranky today

A few things are bugging me today -

• People that pay cash - or worse - write checks for gas. Pay at the pump, people!
• People that pass me on the right when I'm turning left - or worse - when the mistakenly think I'm turning left
• People that have 18-20 items in the 15 or less aisle.
  
• People using self checkout lane for the first time ever, and have NO idea how "this new fangled thing works"

Grrr - I guess I was just impatient today.

Oh - I forgot...

• Alex Rodriguez has been using "performance enhancing drugs", which are apparently different from steroids. Bullshit spin doctoring. It's amazing to me that everyone else was using steroids, but the poster boy of baseball was using "performance enhancing drugs".